HI GUISE! I'M POSTING AGAIN HERE!

I'm spending more time and squeezing my heart and mind on my tumblr account here

On wanting love and despising it

You should be thankful that I loved you. I always have and always will.

We were idealistic, funny, crazy, tact, systematic, not to mention our mutual love for music. That was roughly 4 years ago. And surprisingly, it's as if no 4 years have passed. Because love is always new. After all those years, it's still you. And you alone. [period]

We're two miles and two worlds apart when the treading onto our future began. We both have dreams and you should have known I was so proud of you and that although you may not hear it straight from me, I am screaming onto the depths of my ground how I wish you all the happiness and luck in this world. And that I love you.


Yes I was wallowed in the loneliness that parting ways with you brought.

Now that we have grown into the person we want to be; Now that our memories from our past sunny love visit my dream and consciousness; Now that paths are getting straightened; Now that confusion creates an ache in my depths; Now, that I wish you are close to me; Now that I longed to sing with you, bug with you and laugh with you again; Now that I'm thinking you deserve somebody else; Now that I'm thinking you have loved somebody else; Now that I am at peace because the good Lord granted my i-pray-that-he'd-be-happy-even-if-it-doesn't-include-me hums of my heart; Now that I know some good things don't last and aren't meant... I set you free.


So thank me for loving you. I guess I always have and always will.

"If my heart is broken, I should be thankful that I was blessed to have loved... but I cannot live that wisely. That's why I cry." — Nii Parkes

Alam mo yung feeling na, sa dami ng gagawin mo, hindi ka makapagisip ng matino?


Kaya ito nalang ang ginagawa mo:

ANG HIRAP DIN KAPAG DI IN L♥VE

Ewan. Just a random thought. Malamig kasi ngayon kaya kung anu-ano nalang ang iniisip.

But to read between the lines, mahirap nga naman talaga diba?

Doesn't mean that I'm a pathetic soul and a desperate one this time but 'yung feeling na wala kang mafeel kundi nag-iisa ka lang kahit ang dami (literally) namang taong nakapaligid sayo. Yung feeling na parang gusto mo ring ma-try ang ma-inlove. Without prejudice.

Hindi naman ako green-eyed monster pero gusto ko lang ding makafeel nang kahit konting magic.

Oo, Magic!

It's been 4 long years since I've felt that magic I wanna feel kasi eh. Hindi ko alam ah, pero I'm that kind of person. Loving a person for so long and when rough times come and successfully puts an end to that love, it would take years and lifetimes before this little thing down here in my left chest will beat again.

Madrama ba? Masabaw ba? Truth be told, that is the truth.

I am uncertain at my feelings now since it has been a very past love. Pero nandon parin naman ang importansya. Siguro nga lang, my mind, heart and body collaborated na to push me to have some breaths of fresh air.

I am not waiting. For the record. This times lang talaga, ang sarap ma-inl♥ve.

Si Hunk Prof. at ang kanyang Saying

"Don't make simple things complicated. Make complicated things simple."

Yan 'yung nakita ko as I scanned my notebook in Trigo. Isang wagas na quote from my Trigo Prof. na siguro model wanna be kaya hunk na hunk sa campus at plus points pa ang ala-bigbike motorcycle nya. Oh ha?

It was written two years ago at ngayon ko lang nasulyapang muli. Hehe
Swak naman sa akin 'yung wagas na kasabihan ni hunk Prof. pero ang sa akin lang, wouldn't it be nicer if we took risks? Kahit prone to errors tayo, but we took risks.

Ngayon ko lang na-feel na sana I objected his wagas quote. Hehehe. (Naku, baka maka flat 5 ako. Nyehe)

Hindi rin naman kasi maganda kung safe tayo palagi. Parang kulang ka sa exposure kumbaga. At ang importante din naman matututo tayong lumaban at maging wais from the risks that we took. Kahit nagkandaleche-leche na kasi tinry natin yung complicated road. Swerte ka kung successful ka sa huli. Kung hindi naman, go lang ng go. Huwag ka'ng matakot magkamali muli. Nyehehe

So pasensya ka nalang hunk Prof., applicable pa rin naman ang wagas quote mo. Pero dadagdagan ko lang ng extra moves. Nyehehehe.

APPRECIATION

Kaibigan ko: Pasalamat ka tinetext parin kita kahit busy ako.
Ako: Mas pasalamat ka kasi nagrereply ako sa mga texts mo! *kumulo ang dugo*

Nais ko lang i-share ito kahit may right to privacy 'yung kaibigan ko. Hehe
Kumulo lang ang dugo ko kasi ni hindi lang naman nya naisip na malaking bagay na rin 'yung pagreply ko ano!

I mean, kahit simpleng bagay, dapat i-appreciate mo yan. Kesyo me kwenta man o wala.
I don't wanna sound like giving a sermon, but siguro it's a reminder nalang din to ask ourselves what are the things to be thankful for lately and the things to be appreciated rin.